Misty rivers... where I'm swimming with my eyes closed

2010-04-24T16:35:00.002+08:00

two more days to enlistment in NS...

Make a change!

2009-09-30T22:04:00.002+08:00

Hello, back from the tedious exams,
So today the topic is selfishness...

Selfish can be view as acts that have only one's interest in mind regardless of others. To me, selfishness should be viewed as a natural instinct of human nature. No one should be blamed for acts that seem selfish, except if the act is really kind of demeaning and degrading one's self worth. First and foremost, the basis of selfishness is respect. Respect is an honour given to us no matter whether we deserve it in the first place. But the problem is does selfishness really degrade perception of one of others? We are motivated to pave a comfortable road for us to ride on in life... this is mostly true when we bring in the Darwinian view of life- the fittest survive. Even those who seem to be a hero could just be someone who wants to gain personal fame and glory in return. Even so, this can be justified as a moral act in view of selfishness motivating factor we have initially. One classic example is those firefighter heroes who sacrificed their life to save people who were trapped in twin towers in 9/11. Even the satisfaction from a good/heroic deed done can be deemed as selfish? but just like what I've said, it is a justifiable act. We act on rationale, a frame of combination of common sense and personal preference to influence our judgement. To me, this is the root of all problems. Rationale is like reasons for actions taken in a logical sense. The main thing is that if we really provide a reason for everything we do, there can be never-ending issues and the worst is we become more skeptical of the good intentions people have.

hmmm, thats all...

2009-09-09T21:02:00.000+08:00

Hi world,

Today was a great day except for the heat that is killing me bit by bit... Sad to say today will be the last day that I would go behind and play with the kids for the whole week!!! aRGH...

Had an hour chat with my sister and we talked about many many stuffs that are occuring in our lives... I managed to grasp some secrets and hope I can use them in the future. hehe. Brother and sister can sometimes be quite interesting... The days are passing by so quickly that we rarely get time for each other...

Does being the best means you've won it all? I beg to differ... I would say being the best in your eyes then would be a satisfied victory for me... Well, its just an imagination... It will never happen. Some nice songs by liang jin ru stuck in my head the whole day... I am sorry but I am still in love with you and the smile of tommorrow is precious...=)

2009-09-08T23:09:00.000+08:00

Its tuesday people...

Just had tuition with some funny people.. seriously, I was just smiling to myself throughout the whole lesson just now... that was kinda crazy.... haha... More to come in future and hope to sustain long term friendship with these people even after the end of tuition... okay sounds weird...

Anyway, I just realised that there are many smart kids living in my estate... played bball with them was kinda interesting and funny... Missed my childhood days.. Innocence is a virtue... Some of them from RI, really smart. Some from DHS... haha, none from catholic high.. I like their attitude... Some small kid came up to me and said height aint an advantage... Haha.. he is impressive but of coz it does make a difference to the match.duh! haha.

2009-09-05T20:29:00.000+08:00

BACK FROM SWIMMING!!!! I am damn tired... really physically... was kinda of a competitive training today... I realised I really need to engage in tough training after As...

Been researching for better JAP songs... If anyone has any good japanese songs.. please notify me.. hehe..

ARGH... I need a respite!!!! but its not worth...

2009-09-04T21:31:00.000+08:00

Today was a destressing day!!! totally did nothing!!! haha.. Went back to my usual hangout to play bball with smaller kids. A lot of accidents happen today. I accidentally broke one small guy's specs. So Sorry.. really didnt mean to... Subsequently, I hit his brother on his head... Really damn sorry man... I dont know why I am the only one who threw the ball but hit people... Kinda finding myself a bit too big in such place. But the kids were nice.. They really didnt mind and even challenged me somemore. haha.. Again, I played football and accidentally kicked the ball and hit a young lady... Surprising, I thought it was hard, but she said its okay... Oh Wells, the kids are really sporty and fun to hang out with. Theres this small kid with 6 abs!!! amazing... haha.. instead of calling biceps muscles, they call them mouse...o.O HAHA.. oh wells, hope to go there more often after As.. Yeah, promised them to come as often as I can after my exams..=)Been listening to MVs for past hours... I realised many Jay Chou's MV are really touching and hilarious... HAHA. Hope to catch up soon and cannot wait for exams to end soon. But on a lighter note, its really heartening that JC life is coming to a halt sooner or later... I really need a facebook account to keep contacts. HAHA... Swimming tomorrow!! YES!!! finally...

2009-08-28T23:52:00.000+08:00

Today was a real tiring day... Had lots of fun and laughter with council mates once again... HAPPY BIRTHDAY sze wei.. 18 is definitely a prime age to be looking forward to... So, we went Revenue Hse to have seafood buffet. It was quite okay but it was kinda cruel killing the prawns in front of our own eyes. So, we hanged out like for 4 hours before I rush back home to report. Thanks to yi hui for the cab ride and I really did kinda enjoyed myself, deludging in sweet and hilarious conversations with council peeps.

This is just a dream. Don't hope too much on it... just let it go and the pain will ease. But back to point, is it worthy?? I need an answer and sometimes the glaring lie is a painful one...

2009-08-27T14:47:00.001+08:00

If only it was as easy as 1 to 10...

一段情两颗心三个字是我爱你
无聊时就溜出去
期待每天在一起
巴不得粘着你
就这样的不分离
十全十美的爱情
从一到十等于我和你

爱的故事就像你生病时照顾你的护士
没有爱要如何度日
我们爱十个数字
一到十或许不止一到十
其实爱俯拾即是何必等良辰吉时
散播快乐散播爱
爱要及时和仇恨说BYE
有时候难以启齿
但还要得说出来
爱有很多种
爱做很多梦
有些时候带着很多痛
但是我爱人人人人爱我噢

一到十等于我和你 by 范玮琪

For the simple reason I do not know when it started... Perharps just a phone call away...
Simply in love with this simple song

2009-08-25T22:27:00.000+08:00

Anyone wants to go swimming please ask me along... I just need some WAVES...

2009-08-24T22:43:00.000+08:00

swimming is a type of addiction...

2009-08-22T20:44:00.000+08:00

what a chore to go through what I have done for the past 2 years in AJC.
Probably council has been almost my JC life and I just cant seem to pen down anything that seems so glorious.
Perharps I was just enjoying my time in council that I cant seem to remember the commitments I've made during my term of office. Indeed, it was a experience but the only people I can share this experience is with Councillors of AJC. We knew right from the start there are gonna be many rough tides ahead. Despite that, there is no doubt I managed to widen my social circle. There are much things valuable in life. Right now, its As that is a worry and a motivation. Knowledge sadly is based and driven by the presence of the hateful exams people seem to take year in year out. This is our world, we cant change it. But we do know that our lives are still within our control. Its a joy to be living. No matter what it takes, I must embrace myself, cuddle in the arms of the ones around me, spread the love, the joy and the stress. Maybe thats what really brings the society this far.

Answering your own questions is a form of commitment. We make decisions based on rationale for most people. I wont deny some are simply carried away by other thoughts. Humans are kind by nature and we learn to accept and get accustomed to things and radical changes around us. We derived happiness from all sorts of stuff. We derived joy from people who care for us and in return those who we care for. We should be thankful for the environment we live in. I am grateful for having a unique adorable family, a caring group of friends and mentors/teachers who go an extra mile to aid us. I cannot describe the feeling I am having now, but it just came to me what life should entail. If someone can ever define its true meaning and reason for existence, please do me this favour. I'll buy you a drink. I'll try to be a better brother, a better son, a better grandson, a better nephew, a better cousin, a better friend, a better student. By and large, a better person.

Enough of rambling all the thoughts flowing through my mind. Now, let me share my day's experience...
Was quite happy when the dentist encourage and praise me for keeping my teeth in good condition. It has been eons since he gave me a positive comment.=) thumbs and bottles up. Swimming was quite fulfilling today. I did learnt and practise more lifesaving skills, making the society a safer place to live in. haha. nothing much now, except SGC that I need to think critically because ms raudah kinda said its important. Must finish by midnight. I think I kinda made someone a bit "pissed" off because I sent my friend an sms saying that I saw her at bus stop but it wasnt her. hmmm, what else? oh yeah, my timing improve by 6 secs!!!! hahaha.

I need to be full steam now.....

2009-08-21T22:40:00.000+08:00

live up to people's expectations...
thats not really easy. its stressful and painful but it will be gone in a flash...

2009-08-19T21:51:00.000+08:00

My gums HURT!!!! and I guess that I'm too heaty. So, my mum gave me drink the bitter medicine and I swear it was really bitter to the max.... ARGH. cannot really eat right now....

School today was tiring especially using up some brain cells in the hot afternoon for my econs case study!!! Met Stephanie Tan on the bus and she was very high as usual discussing about many issues that are somewhat I would never bring up or think about in my daily life.. haha. Yeah, both of us cannot wait for SC farewell, we hope there is. HAHA!

What a weird sign... I cannot comprehend at all... invisible is the word. Its like I absorbed all the wavelength of the visible light spectrum... I need this to end... Better still, conclude

2009-08-13T23:00:00.000+08:00

just one conclusion...

We cannot be playing this game alone...

2009-08-12T23:22:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, we just got to accept who we are. Things arent simple in this complex world, neither is anything too complicated for us to understand. We just need more time. Time is the essence(not those kind of brand essence of chicken). We need time. despite the upcoming events in school like today's mock papers.. I still look forward to Saturday's lesson. Guess thats the only time I can really take my mind of everything. EVERY SINGLE thing...

RESPITE RESPITE.... No, there's not much time

2009-08-10T21:36:00.000+08:00

have you ever wondered what could be the worst human nature? I have the answer. Its pure deception. Not the double-cross type, not the betrayal type, its the double-faced type. The one where you will not even recognise the person and know his identity or even his/her name. Its another cyclical phenomena of humans. Sad to say, this kind of deceiving purpose makes no sense at all. The only reason is to take advantage of people behind their backs. On the other hand, we should build on each other's strengths and weaknesses instead of turning one's back behind the mask of the face. There is simply no reason to me. Deception is a pure evil, one that ruin relationship and the kind nature of one. Emotions are a form of expressions and one should not be shy or scared to express them in front of others. I cannot take this reason no matter what..

I just cant seem to find a reason...

2009-08-10T15:33:00.000+08:00

Hi, just came back from bishan. actually, was kinda forced to return home earlier partly due to the lack of willingness and ability to stay on and mainly due to my flu. SOMEONE IS EITHER SCOLDING ME LIKE MAD OR SOMEONE is missing me dearly. I could sneeze 4 times in a row! I had to quickly run to the toilet in the library before some librarian come and ask me to go back and rest. Haiz... was kinda bored but I cleared many of my doubts on some econs concept and flow of thinking. Guess I will have to continue on tommorrow since I didnt finish up. I saw the library and it was quite empty to my surprise... Perharps everyone is like a hermit crab hidding somewhere...I finally satisfy my craving for the taiwanese chicken cutlet and a pudding milk tea!!! Well, that was my lunch=)

Tomorrow is a school day again and I'm kinda glad prolly because I am having the post school syndrome due to this sudden change of having too little time on hand to study and now much more time on hand. I need more motivation!!! or I need to motivate myself. Mr chan is right. This is the final term of my education.... I need to keep reminding myself. I came a long way from cedar primary to catholic high to AJC. Many of my friends have different stories but we still need to push ourselves...

I couldnt care less, nor I couldnt be bothered. Yeaps, Thats a BIG FAT LIE. I am still trapped in this spin of memories which you cannot even seem to remember...........

hope

2009-08-07T17:19:00.000+08:00

Its fate and I have to accept...

Again

2009-08-01T15:45:00.001+08:00

I have to get used to this mundane life of studying... sometimes, it just gonna be tough. Another wish...

I cannot remember when was the last time I ever look at you... look into your eyes... but then again.. Its just another state of mind. another story...

2009-07-27T00:17:00.007+08:00

25th25th25th25th!

This was my 1st task as a councillor!!

THE 25th Students' council!!!!Part of a history, Flash of a memory... So long AJ 25th SC....

Just wanna really keep it safe in my memories.... haha.. So, on the 23 july 2009, its our farewell, its our destiny...

The person Who Took me throughout my WHOLE TERM OF OFFICE!!!!

Mr Ng Hock Soon. A wonderful teacher/friend and mentor

The person who smiles no matter what happens and gives you all the warmth you need..

Ms Zhu!!! A awesome teacher/friend/mentor

Mr Ng Hong Peng, I really dont know why I TEARED when I see you crying... Lol. its just natural... anyway, Funny and interesting fellow who took care of me during my council term.

A perfect teacher/mentor/Friend

sorry, picture was teary itself...=0

Just wanted to thank some people who made a difference to me!!=)

Mr koh yi hui/VP- always there for me

Mr Chong Chee YEE- smile is always on ur face.=) lighten my day

Mr Ngiam zhen wei- funny fellow!!!=)

Ah... haha.. a bit auntie.. hahah!!!! Weixuan!=)

SZEWEI!!!=) lame and interesting fellow...=) and thats our code sign...XXD

Ms PRESIDENT!!!! under you for all adhoc was wonderful... Thanks for ur guidance!!!=)

HAHa. now, i agree you look like dinosaur!!! haha but dont worry, its a cute dinosaur!=)

MONICA!!

HAHA! both of us look retarded but thats kinda how we two always behave when we are together.. haha a bit wrong.. haha

ZHANYEE!!!

Ms fong Li Chu, My cg mate..... hahah=) joker also!=)

HAHA! a bit auntie oso! but really funny talking to her! yo! OBS MATE!=)

Rueylin!

My dear EC games IC who brainstorm with me like crazy!!! but it was worthwhile...

JIWEI!!!

HAHA, always there to cheer people up!

NELLA!!!

First person to thank for perfect start in my council term!!! thanks a lot!

MEIKEE!!!!

The person who taught me piano!!! haha, I enjoyed working with you HSE CAPT!!!

JIALI!!!

The lame of the lame of lame girl- haha, funny person!!!

SI HUI!!

Perfect person to joke with anytime anywhere!!

WEIJIAN!!=)

Such a long time ago. Yet it just flew past. We will rise to the occasion as the 25th again. Its our strength and ability. As one, we are individuals, but together we still make an individual, unique kind of the world. Its the bond, and eternal bond....

It will be long before it comes to life again. but the sure thing is it will....

2009-07-18T21:33:00.002+08:00

ahhh... i think i got all the funny funny sickness coz my nose is irritated badly, my throat is coarse, my cough is damn dry. Sad to say that it didnt recover after swimming coz usually it works, but this time, it worked for a while. As a result, I keep sleeping the whole day, hoping that the irritating flu will find someone else to reside in. Sickkkkkk....

On a lighter note, I had my fun. I had my time. I had my chance. Now, I should really be focused and come on! Jiayou everyone!=)

blogger

2009-07-15T23:39:00.002+08:00

Wee, I am finally starting on my maths revision slowly. real slow but at least started. I need to be patient and thats the price of being too lazy at the start of the year. I need to remember the steps and retain them in my brain. Got back econs today, was relatively quite surprising considering the fact of my daily performance in class for econs. At least I pass and thats a good start. Time is short and things are getting more and more packed together. If I had all the money in the world, the one thing i would purchase is time. not the magazine but the real time.=)

there's nothing left to be pondering about and I cannot cry over split milk for the fact that I split the milk. Sounds weird though. Its another long day tomorrow and I hope I can pull through until tuition at night. Sometimes, it just makes me wonder...

STOP=Sit and Think, Observe and Penetrate their minds...
As responsible people, we do not act recklessly

2009-07-13T17:39:00.003+08:00

anther disappointment from the results I just got back today. The drastic drop in GP and maths just puts me off. This is so demoralising, and I know that it aint gonna get better if I dont do something about it. oh well, I'll just have to accept it. Some people are just really smarter and others just need a little more to cover that stretch of distance. Well, the point is the minimum I should do is cover that distance.

Break free...

anything

2009-07-11T00:24:00.002+08:00

The real story behind... Its not just the way we look at it... more than it meets the eye.

another week is over...

hello

2009-07-08T23:23:00.002+08:00

hello world,

had a strange day today. Met yunyang and see ler for gym and we were like damn slack, dunno what we were doing. Then, I went "cheers" to get a bottle of milk and it turns out to be sour MILK! which wasnt expired yet. What luck! Dutch Lady milk! haiz. Then, there were many many people at yck mrt,having some orientation gathering I think. Should be some university people ba. So, I took bus 13 home and passed by my old school where I kept smiling to myself after remembering some funny events that happen back then with my friends. HAHA1 Came back home and pop to bed for a nap but it ended up like a 5 hr nap. haha. The fear of the real thing is coming soon. I really need to find some way to put myself back on track. School life is really .....

Where's my motivation? I need a summer break.(didnt I just had one?)

swim

2009-07-04T21:14:00.002+08:00

just came back from the pool and I am very very tired. Had lots of fun with the 23/08 people today. Last LAN outing as promised but I still have not much motivation. haha. What's my problem man? Awwww.... Monday is youth day holidays!!!! Its something to celebrate too! hehe.

Slowly, bit by bit, the pain goes away. It never comes back soon enough to remind me the situation once before. But, I will wait, wait slowly, slowly....

haha

2009-07-04T00:20:00.002+08:00

over!!! mid years are gone with the wind. Felt a burden off my load but still there is no room to slack soon.haha, maybe just a few days.=) Monday is youth day too..=)

Had lots of fun at the singapore flyer today. Was quite an amazing feat and the lights there were simply awesome. Took many photos but lazy upload. hehe. Had Thai Express just now and we were the last customer for the day. hehe. Tomorrow class outing at 11.=) see you guys there!=)

Blog

2009-06-27T22:35:00.002+08:00

Today is a tiring day. Spent 5 hrs in the library trying to absorb some notes until I saw mr wei heng. It has been like 1 yr since I last saw him. HAHA, the funny guy. okay, swimming was super duper tiring but okay since the coach is really serious on training us well. He taught us many technique which I still cannot grasp. SIAN! better luck next time. Seems like in serious need of more training before mastering the stroke completely. Haha, okay, I am not thinking so straight now, too tired and just typing what comes into my mind. Yay, school is starting. Gotta catch up on sleep and everything. I think there will be more work coming up soon especially after our mid years... Argh... I hope to completely focus...

swimming test

2009-06-25T22:47:00.002+08:00

haha! Passed my BM test today. Was kinda scary but fun at the same time. Special thanks to my coach, examiner and the 3 lifesavers who took the same test with me. We all passed!!=) Now, I should return and focus on what really in front of me- Mids!!! Zzz. My coach was kinda happy, actually everyone was. haha. We did the test for like 2.5 full hrs until the swimming pool shut down and the guard had to wait for us to bathe too! haha. What really matters is the process of learning actually. LifeSaver is not superhuman. We just preserve lives.=)

MOF lunch tomorrow! sounds great!
It has died down again...

lol

2009-06-24T22:20:00.003+08:00

Well, another day has passed. Today's progress was relatively slow. What more can I say?

Tomorrow is the day, like finally.

ns checkup

2009-06-23T22:46:00.002+08:00

Went to CMPB for NS checkup with mr jason today and spent like 5 hrs at that centre doing all the test. The IQ test was power to the max, I think it used up half of my brain cells for the day. Sitting in front of a computer for so long can be dangerous and I didnt really managed to complete some of the test due to lack of time. Time is ticking away like raindrops and these raindrops keep falling on my head, reminding me that the day is near. ZZZ. Oh ya, My BM test is this thursday. All the best people!=)

Shagged

swimming test

2009-06-20T22:18:00.002+08:00

Another swimming lesson just passed like that. The date is closer and closer. I really hope the 4 of us can really do our best and pass this hurdle together!!! I heard that the examiner is fierce and strict. oh wells, we will just have to prove our potential. Bought A new GC/TI today thanks to the leak in my battery that has been disrupting my train of thoughts doing maths questions and today i almost flared up for a lame question when my GC/TI didnt want to respond to my cries. WOO, TI is expensive, about 170++. Felt the pinch because everyone pool in money to buy that GC/TI since we were all outside and we thought they only accepted cash. anyways, we still paid cold hard cash and I could see the grin on the uncle's face as he received many purple and red notes. Today was a hilarious day which made me laugh hard to my stomach. Somehow, it was kinda funny but shallnt elaborate or I will forever to rattle on. I have to face reality. I'm left with a week more. Whats done is done. Best of it is what we can all just do. I really feel sorry and pathetic for some of the things that happen during this holidays. Nevertheless, I must cross this thurs' hurdle first before considering the other yet I have to see far and plan in advance. Sounds weird...

Somehow, all of the sudden, I look into your eyes. I might have mistook. I might have missed it, But I am sure it caught my attention and I'm relieved... Not again...

flu

2009-06-18T23:26:00.003+08:00

Irritating flu on the run!!!!! literally running in my nose!!!! gotta stop soon before I sneeze like no one's business. I hope I'll be better tommorow so that have enough concentration to do preparations. 1 week more to mids. jiayou people and I think I passed the virus to some girl in my tuition class just now. haha, quite comforted.=)

No more signs... Its a deadend and a deadknot...

flu

2009-06-18T15:12:00.000+08:00

Is someone really missing me or scolding me? sniffing and sneezing like mad.... arghhh.. go take a nap 1st!!!!

here

2009-06-17T23:53:00.002+08:00

Stay out of house for a night at pal's house to do some studying as well as catch up with each other. Although we didnt really study a lot, I think it should be better than my progress at home? Haha, at least I dont get so frustrated so easily. We slept at 4am yesterday and in the end we woke up quite late about 10. It was quite fun anyways. haha, better add some "fun" factor or not next time wont invite me over to friend's house le!=) Stay away from computer for a day which was quite remarkable. HAHA. DAD BOUGHT A NEW BICYCLE!!!! YAY!!!

post

2009-06-15T10:12:00.001+08:00

Have you had any idea that before the sun rise, the moon sets?

over

2009-06-14T21:21:00.001+08:00

Bronze Medallion and Mid years Stress response system...

no more....

night safari

2009-06-13T22:37:00.005+08:00

Yesterday was relatively okay for an og outing after not meeting up for so long. I jjust kept kinda quiet because I just somehow subconsciously felt we couldnt be so close as what we used to be during the JAE and PAE period. Anyway, hope to have more time for each other and have fun together. Went wth family to "NS", ps: not army!=) Night safari was simply amazing and the price was also astounding. I could easy survive one month on that amount that was used for an entry to see some creatures. Nevertheless, on the bright side, ironically, night safari was great. My family had so much fun making fun of each other and being fascinated by the forest which seem to be a cooler place than my house? haha. The only regret is that we couldnt take photos with flashes of the animals because they are kinda sensitive to these lights. Scaring them could mean a bite on your hands or legs! HAHA. The most impressing one was the elephant which literally boast at us by lifting his heavy BIGFOOT and flapping its wide ears! So cool. There was this species of birds called the "red headed crane". One amazing fact is that they are lifelong partners. When one of them passes away, the other would follow in a short period. How sweet and sad this kind of ending can be. I was loss of words for a second. They are just birds anyway. What more can we say about humans with real feelings that comes from our heart and brain. A tinge of love is what matters to these birds.(probably the replica of the ying-yang birds)

Let the photos speak for themselves:

EVER PLAYED WITH FIRE?????

Now, SPOT THE DIFFERENCE!!! I GLOW!!!!

perharps

2009-06-12T01:40:00.000+08:00

Perharps they are gone for real. Its a pity...

lifesaving

2009-06-10T22:05:00.000+08:00

A Reason to Save aint a reason to make a mistake

another day

2009-06-09T22:40:00.002+08:00

Today, did some integration and found out it was kinda rusty but nevermind, as long as get back on track can already. Went to camp at bishan library after lunch with 23/08 peeps. Little did I realised that campers are also spotted for sleeping! Guess what? I slept halfway and the library personel came and woke me up. He said " no sleeping." and I guess I just gave him the half "blur" half "whatever" face. Time seems to be ticking faster than ever and i guess it will never stop trying to break free from us. There is econs test tomorrow and I havent touch even a single bit of econs. I really enjoyed last year's holidays I guess cause this year's seem to be the conjugate of last year's. Persist and Resist!!! OG 21 outing this friday!!!!!=)))))

Its just another dream I guess...

famine camp

2009-06-08T20:52:00.002+08:00

Back from famine camp. Having mixed feelings about the camp itself. It really made me see the world, the bigger picture of people in other countries. The more it will empower me to treasure the things around me more and the people around me more.=) Oh ya! Benjamin was there too!!! just that he wasnt in my grp.=( Still we had lots of fun!=)

Went to play basketball behind my house just now and there were 4 small kids who played with me. They said they didnt mind my OverAge and yeaps, had a chance to have a match with them. Haha, enjoyed myself though especially with this cute young boy around who does things that made us roll on the floor and laugh.=) HAHA. I've been wasting about 10 hours today. Jermyn Heng, you better wake up your idea! haha.

I have to stop imagining cause it seems like it doesnt matter anymore...

lol

2009-06-03T13:15:00.002+08:00

Its real for sure. I couldnt say it before but this time, I'm certain things are just the way it should be. The world is a funny place where things just come and goes. One moment it was there, now its gone in thin air. Things are much beyond our control at times but we will just have to adapt responsively and do whats right. I cant say things can be perfect or even real at times. Situations are the only real scenerios for our perfect response to be shown. But sadly, no one is perfect.

The holidays are like water dripping away bit by bit which is kinda torturous because I cannot seem to make the best out of it and after taking a step back, its just not gonna work out somehow. Its ironic how people treat holidays nowadays. Life is more than just papers but without papers, you are not really gonna survive out there. Had Sandcastle building yesterday at ECP and it was pleasantly fun having opportunities to hang out with some council peeps. The weather feel like the sun was revolving around the earth instead of the other way. Nevertheless, the $2.50 sugar cane saved our lives at chomp chomp. I come to realised that Chomp Chomp is really kinda out of the place for most people especially the long ride from ECP to there and out of there.

SHOUTOUT: THERE IS NO ONE THAT I KNOW OF IN THE SAME GROUP AS ME FOR FAMINE CAMP!!!! WHAT THE.....lol.

It has been silent for a long time. But the storm still lingers around unexpectedly...

anotherday

2009-05-31T21:16:00.002+08:00

Its the holidays... LAN outing was fun... and now there is another new joke in my class. hahaha. I really cannot stop laughing on the way back home. People were like looking at me with some weird expression! so weird. Anyway, the past few days were relatively okay for me despite some thoughts troubling me throughout the weekends. Now, wat I need to do is to focus and do the right thing. I really need to get back on track literally and metaphorically if that is how it is being spelt. haha. JIAYOU AB CAMPERS! YOUR BIG DAY IS HERE!=)

another day

2009-05-27T22:26:00.000+08:00

To be running alongside with you...

2009-05-23T23:31:00.003+08:00

Today was kinda great except for the fact I had to jump out of bed so early. Swimming was okay I guess but some memories and regrets came flashing back in my mind... wonder if that was ever true or not. Went to explore J8 today although it sounds like I've nvr been to that familiar place near my sec school. I am super drowsy and tired now... Shall not blog any further. Last week of the month and here comes the busy holidayssss....

another day

2009-05-20T20:20:00.001+08:00

June holidays are coming and so are the mid yrs. The start of the battle begins...
This time, it will be a terrifying one... I need a lifevest now and I mean right now.

cheer support

2009-05-15T21:41:00.002+08:00

Cheer Support was great totally. Congrats to AJ vball for getting into top 3 and exceeding expectations from last year where they only got 4th. We cheered like mad and the match was like only a few points difference and it really made that difference. Last cheer support SC will have in our term of office and now we can really sit back and relax for the time... I learnt one important lesson today- No matter how bad you fall, no matter how far you reach, there will always be a moment you will see the unwaivering support someone is giving you by the side and that is the most important of all.

After that, went out with council peeps to celebrate cheeyee's birthday which makes him 18 now.(older than me!). Had lots of fun and laughter at orchard and I must say that guys are quite orchard road idiots, not knowing the way through huge shopping centres. Apart from our mundane school life, there is so many more things we can do and we should take every opportunity to do so. Right now, right at this time, I must say that its time to get back to reality. A dream is a dream and ironically, dreams don't come true. So why dream in the first place?

Its a matter of time

2009-05-13T22:56:00.003+08:00

Its just a matter of time before we face our worst fear...

Went down to CCAB today to support Vball players in their crucial match. I had a really really "hot" time over there. The place was like an oven and I think I was probably sweating more than the players in the court. The other matches were relatively more exciting probably cos they had supporters on both sides and both parties were really strong. AJ vball was great today as they thrashed the opposing team with 2 sets straight, like it was the shortest cheer support I ever went. Better Luck next time if I can ever go to another match, hoping for a more exciting tough fight between both teams.

These few days are really hot and the weather is =-=... Really want to dip in the water fast. The weekends are nearing and things should get better by then.=)

close fight.

2009-05-06T21:45:00.002+08:00

Went down to support AJ BBALL team against RJ BBALL. Was a damn close fight with them. Thanks to jiahong who shot in the last goal in the net and win RJ by just 1 point. It was totally awesome! The scene was great and the atmosphere was kinda crazy. We all just stood up simultaneously and jumped for joy. Well done Team AJ, Keep the Good work up!=)

Didnt really wanted to go down to support VBall because the weather was kinda killing me already. Went home and just slam onto the bed and snooze all the way. Today was a short day but i missed half a tutorial and two lectures.O.0

you got me totally and I got nothing left... Tomorrow will be a better day...

home

2009-05-04T19:39:00.002+08:00

Today is a day in history when I go back home earlier than any other days. Had a great laugh with the dudes again on random stuffs. Chemistry SPA is over and done with! Don't ever take a second look on the chemistry spa notes from now on. I think I neeed to buck up on my chemistry or not it will remain stuck in the mud for a damn long time. Its about time now...

The weather is hot as usual and it is a damn good reason to dip ourselves in the cool swimming pool and relax for that moment. Ever since council hectic period has come to a standstill, I feel much more relieved but uncertain about what I can do if I am not busy at least thinking about those council stuffs. Nonetheless, it was a pleasant journey having to train two different group of leaders to be in different context and parts of the year. Its more than just a council I have been in. Its an AJ 25th council family. Glad to have know 23/08 people as well as 25th council. Its rewarding indeed...

I cannot afford to be so dumb again... Think again before you act. Mr Heng...

blog

2009-05-03T21:48:00.002+08:00

Its monday again tomorrow and I have to stay in sch,out of home like any normal adult from 7am to 5pm. Taking the rush hour bus again and thinking of thhe possibility of surviving through this long week again. I had a nice dinner just now and enjoyed the all time favourite X-men show on TV. I am still having the crave and desire to catch the lastest X-men origins!!! maybe Next week.=)

Trying to divert my attention to other things the whole day but failed to do so. The weather is getting from bad to worse. The temperature has made my room like a steaming room and my motor definitely has to be spinning to keep it low... I always enjoyed the company of nature. Maybe sometime soon I will just get used to this busy lifestyle like any other person. At least one thing for sure, its a mundane life of a student. We are all in a mess. Lets quickly get over and be done with this...

Pal, this is called joy.

wat the shit

2009-05-02T21:20:00.002+08:00

I want to run away from all these. Its too much.. I need a break..

study!

2009-05-02T08:02:00.002+08:00

Its an irony to say that its a 5 day week when Saturdays can be so busy at times.

I don't want to waste another day...

Swimming lessons are BACK!!!! see ya later!

sports carnival

2009-05-01T14:38:00.003+08:00

Sports carnival was great especially when I saw the determination and perservance my fellow classmates put in. Onzen was great. He tahan his sprained ankle and continued to participate in the 4x100m race. Bowen was also fantastic especially with his postive attitude towards the race itself. Weiming was cool because I could see he did ran for his life in his 100m although the 3rd runners were relatively strong. Kendrick was admirable too when I saw him trying his best to dash across the last stretch of 100m. Our runners were great and I really wanted them to win too. Anyway, we played football after the event when I realised how pro the teachers were in soccer. I couldnt even tackle some of them because they had damn good coordination. I stopped when I saw a few familiar councillors' faces. So, everyone did help to pick up the rice on the track and it was a tiring job though. Councillors' job is more or less done except for cheer support in the later few weeks. 25th SC has been a great companion to me in my jc life and I have made many great friends throughout. Now, its up to the 26th to put in their effort and achieve the standards that they set for themselves. 26th!, we have faith in you guys.

there is still a long stretch of road to take, many paths to decide and many shortcuts... Its all within us...

another day

2009-04-29T20:25:00.002+08:00

Its a tiring day today... I dont know why but I feel tired and sick of everything... had a very bad dream last night. Was kinda scary and freaky. There is sports carnival tomorrow and it seems like ajc is becoming more and mroe quiet after those recent events. hope tomorrow's one will be a better one than last year. Good luck to runners!=)

sick and tired and we are all still trying...

nothing

2009-04-27T23:05:00.000+08:00

Am I missing out a lot?

Its dark and quiet here...

rash

2009-04-27T17:48:00.001+08:00

Oops.... wrong move again...=-=

lazy

2009-04-26T20:54:00.002+08:00

Lazy to do anything... slping seems to be my current hobby..=)

Tomorrow's monday again...4 hrs of chemistryyyyyyyy.......... Not that I am complaining but I really cannot tahan the long hours spent in a tutorial... Many things to do and many stuffs to be done. I wonder why people can be so hiong sometimes.

Always wanted to catch X-men-origins of wolverine but cannot seem to find anyone to catch it with coz my siblings seem not to like the hairy guy with claws.. hahaha.

I will change I promise. I will try I reassure you. I will settle it once and for all!!! but thats if I have the chance.. haha.. PILES OF HWWWWWW!!!!!! someone save me!!!!!AHHHHHH

anything also take

2009-04-24T22:12:00.002+08:00

This world can be a parady at times. For the past few days, I kept having this disillusion that people(HUMANS!) are kind creature who always do the right things at the right time. What a lie. my wallet got freaking stolen today. The best part was that the crime scene is in the guys toilet. But come to think of it, its the best place to commit whatever you wanna commit. The point is that my bag wasnt open and it got ransacked. Kudos to the stealer who got a spare 17 dollars to enjoy whatever he needs to and also admire my ezlink photo. Better Luck next time huh. Try aiming those with bigger pockets and not those who will only keep less than an expected value, $50? and so my beloved wallet which I kept for a year is gone is a flash. Time to use the new one and catch up with fashion? What the heck?!

Pissed is the only word I can describe to anyone who ask me abt what happen. Never mind, its once in a while I hope at least for the person.=). A very very impt lesson to you,sir, REPENT! My class guys are very supportive of this term. PLEASE TAKE IT SERIOUSLY!

On a lighter note, basically it ruined my day. Couldnt study or whatsoever... seriously. okay, enough of rattling... I realised.... my class laughing gang has been laughing non stop every single day in AJC and I think we can live life a little longer thanks to our hard work.=) the current joke is the "no deal!!!" from the deal or no deal show. For more info, can approach any of our members. HAHAHAHA

I'm at loss... seriously...

chargedd

2009-04-23T22:16:00.002+08:00

The weekends are coming!!! should I really do smthg abt it? HAHA. this means mugging like a zombie. So many things to do and catch up... PCME is like my life now and I cannot bear to forsake any, not to forget GP. But seriously friends, Results are really really not everything. Most impt is you take pride in the work you do. Every stroke, every thought, every word is used with a rationale. Results may be the prove of your work but we must never be discouraged by them even if its the other way. Tuition today was quite effective and I really hope to retain the information I learnt over the weeks. HAHa. good luck to guys who are having more and more matches coming up. I really hope to go there and do cheer support especially in the finals. AJC soccer made it possible. This team is marvaleous... Keep going people.

Feel* in the blanks... Its true...

day

2009-04-22T18:39:00.001+08:00

Even if its just a while... its still there...

day

2009-04-21T22:50:00.002+08:00

I totally missed the old days I had with the jokers.( cat high dudes) Today, tuition was exceptionally funny because we appeared to be quite dumb and in our unique ways. Mr yong was quite amused and we started laughing like almost every second someone said something. I also learnt a very valuable lesson today- dont bite off more than what you can take. Its a matter of time everyone turns into a mugger and start chionging like some hamster on the spinning wheel. The competition is fierce and the stress is intense. Rarely, we get to see more laughter and stress relieving times. There are some people who you can always rely on to bring your life to a more interesting track rather just a hasty train by the sidelines.

more than that.

reason

2009-04-20T21:14:00.003+08:00

I have something to declare: ionic equilibria sucks to the max... I just dont get it.. need someone kind to teach me patiently... Today was quite a hectic day. Got so tired that I sleptt in the library without knowing I slept.o.O As usual, we laugh like mad today again. I think can call ourselves laughing gang in AJ already. seriously, We can own people... Lots of fun but also lots of stress on me. Ever since EC, I have been lagging behind badly which was evident when I couldnt catch my breath in the chemistry tutorial today. There is also something I realised today= the power of GC must not be underestimated...The greater the hopes, the more disappointment to expect.=-= What is this world turning to?

There is a reason behind evey single face... every single expression and every single look... There is someone somewhere somehow trying to be the one and the only one there...

elects camp 09

2009-04-19T20:49:00.003+08:00

I'm back from elects camp. the experience was great and fun but at the same time scary. 2009 council elects are ready to take up their new challenges in their coming term of office.

On the saturday morning, I bought a burger and ate it in my dad's car while waiting for my reporting time. Initially, I thought that the camp was gonna be an easy one but I did not expect the expectations set by us on the elects to be so high. We scolded, scream, pump them for the sake that they will learn their mistakes. The tone of the camp was freaking awesome. I must say Lena was superb in setting the tone right. Although games session 2 and sunrise mass game was kinda =-=!!!, our games comm did pretty well overall and also learnt much more than what we expected.=)

The night JUST BEFORE ELECTS' CAMP IN COUNCIL ROOM...

Sunrise mass game Last station

councillor Jermyn Heng

dont be afraid to live up to your fear, dont be shy to admit the true value of things within your heart.

camp

2009-04-18T00:21:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow is council CAMP. hope everything goes well and smooth... this 4 weeks were tiring but interesting...

Even the best fall down sometimes,
Even the wrong words seems to rhyme,
Whats in your mind?

finally find you and I collide...

council

2009-04-15T22:09:00.003+08:00

Clearly, I was almost knocked out just now. Luckily, I took a bath and is awake now with ms jiwei to carry on with our games stuff. We went around today and took many photos. of coz not the camwhore kind. Those photos are for the games that will be used this weekend. I view my schedule for elects' camp. Practically no time to rest at all. Games can be said to be one of the toughest adhoc to be in but it is sure worth the experience and creative thinking. Fortunately, there is not much things left to do except for the fact there is PHYSICS SPA TMR.
Reminder to self: please bring GP TYS TOMORROW, please bring SPA notes tomorrow and please bring PHYSICS TYS TMR.

I'm so sorry i didnt take the opportunity... It came knocking back at me but I just shoved it aside. . . a chance is just but the number of times you can get a number on a face of a dice. Its luck and faith, not just courage.

council

2009-04-14T22:19:00.002+08:00

life in council can be much expressed in terms of sacriface of precious time which should be allocated efficiently for studying... I love council, no doubt. Its tough, real tough. Its coming to an end real soon. No more proposals, no more brainstorming, no more meetings, no more logistics and no more programme sheets. alright, Lets come back to reality, I still have to work hard for elects' camp although its like 4 days away.REALLY REALLY HOPE EVERYTHING TURNS OUT FINE IN ELECTS CAMP!!!=)

I think my adhoc members all slept an average of 4 hrs a day recently and later I still have to be online to chiong my game proposal... Its real tough, real tough. I also might need some kind soul to remind me to being my camera tomorrow. I cannot believe I missed that out today.

My Napfa was kinda screwed. got a silver thanks to the 3 secs more I had on the stopwatch that took my timing for 2.4km. I had supporters by the sidelines. Sorry that I kinda screwed up this station. however, I am still proud of myself that I crossed the 250cm barrier for my standing broad jump. ANyway, the main thing is no more 8 weeks extra for army...=)
Good luck to jason ong tomorrow for his napfa test!=)

It was a peaceful night. Real peaceful, until there was this shooting star that flew across like an eagle in the skies. You caught my attention and held it tight. It was like entangling in a net filled with spikes. I really need to get out of this predicament. really. but sometimes, I wonder how and wonder why.

2009-04-13T22:51:00.002+08:00

it has been 4 months into 2009 and time seems to fly like no one's business. Event management was relatively okay I would say although I must admit i didnt really prepare that well for it. Haiz, better luck next time in elects camp. I think I can be somewhat a Hero already this week. Today was the events management. Tomorrow there is napfa retest. Wednesday is council meeting. Thursday is Econs timed practice and Friday is left for prep for elects camp. I will probably go crazy. My face might just turn sour during the camp when I see elects walking past me. I really do not want to revive the old days in SJAB where We will screw people. HAHAHA. Sounds Evil.

I'll do it. I'll promise you this time. Its about the faith and not the luck. You shall see... Tomorrowwww....

swimming

2009-04-12T11:25:00.005+08:00

My brother went for his goldstar swimmingg test yesterday. I think he should feel very lucky when the weather turned bad suddenly and forcing us to stop the survival test in the middle. He sure had hell lot of time to rest and conserve his energy. Queestown is really really far away from my house. Nonetheless, it was worth it because my brother passed HIS GOLDSTAR TEST!!! I am feeling happy for him also.. haha.

Here are some pictures during the preparation for the test

the picture was here earlier on.... somehow it vanish..

He seems to have more energy right? haha

Stuck under the shelter thanks to the rain....

I have a pressing issue at the moment which is to catch up on my fitness coz NAPFA retest is this week and I dont wantt my stamina to pull me down again!!!!

It has been a while, a long while since I last heard of you. I need to get over it and be done with. I can linger around no more, waiting for signs and silence. I thought I was stronger, apparently not.... Its not just about you... its more than just a mere dive from the 7m tall jump board...

good friday

2009-04-10T19:59:00.003+08:00

Cant wait for elects' camp to be over cause the point is that I keep thinking about it but I have no clue abt what can I do about it. The stress is building up like a garbage truck. LOL

On a lighter note, I feel like a pig now. I slept the whole day. How amazing it can be to sleep the whole day without having the time to do anything else. The only useful thing is to go for tuition in the morning and slack the rest of the day. Maybe can catch some nice movie later. My room is back in a mess thanks to all the TYS and notes as well as my clothes. I really think I need to either get rid of some clothes or buy a new wardrobe for myself already. The civcs electives are crazy. The rate people are signing up for popular courses is the great singapore sale. I dont even have the chance to sign up for some other course I wanted.

We have come to a point of no return. how ironic is can be when time flies like mad but we are still stuck at this stage where things are almost stagnant. whether there is another way out, we will have to struggle out ourselves. Take a step back or forward can really reflect your true inner self at that point of time.

different perspective

2009-04-09T22:09:00.002+08:00

Today was heart-stopping and racing to an extent. PW results were shocking at that moment and that was all it took.

To AJ107:
Always remember that we did our best on the actual day of OP, spending hours on WR, churning research to facilitate our discussion and also of course our brainstorming session. This journey made our lives more entertaining( I FIND IT TRUE) and also more enriching in a sense we learnt many valuable takeaways from this journey. The journey of our "journey" is a complete one. We reached our destination and saw the new horizon from the top of our mountain. looking back was our hardwork and laughter that brought us together as a team, a pw group and a fun-loving unit. We may seem to forgotten the real objective of the journey, but we must always remember that it has happened and we reap our benefits from it nevertheless. SO, no matter how we feel about our grades are really up to us to look at it. From a realistic point of view, lets face it. its just another H1. The more important one is our 4h2, our qiang xiang! GP is definitely 1000times more impt. Lets work on it.=) From an objective perspective, I can say that we should be proud of ourselves. We learnt a lifeskill and must not regret this journey. Challenge ourselves to greater heights and promise this team that we will not shed another tear or let the sadness dominate our feelings. Take the future as a bet, a challenge, do to the best we can and let our JC life be of no regrets.=)))

To Kendrick:
This subject may seem like a bane to you. I understand the amount of hardwork you put in. Our buckets are filled with these sweat and sleepless nights. Grades might seem to be of importance now, no doubt it is, but most importantly, we learn from this and work even harder. we are 23/08, what things cannot be done with our ability? aim higher!!!=)))

To my friends who are reading this:
I hope PW was a great learning journey for us. No matter what was on that paper, move on and dive further/fly higher. Do not ever doubt your abilities, we can be more than what we expect. The main thing is we must have this strong will to strive on and be there for each other.

I am glad some of my friends were fine and happy after release of results. BE HAPPY AND SMILE ALWAYS LIKE I ALWAYS DO!!!=)))

I did take the lead, I'll wait, wait till the sun really sets in the west and rise in the east. The horizon is that barrier, the barrier I will overcome.

this time

2009-04-07T23:56:00.002+08:00

Today was a tiring day and I am half asleep while i am typing this. Got spelling error dun blame me. Had a long long long discussion with Mr ng and Adhoc today at 530. Thank him so much for staying back to help us brainstorm our mass games. thanks to adhoc and jiwei too for helping out. This is crazy I tell you. Like an econs concept- Limited resources with limited time. This is really testing the patience and resilience of jiwei and I in Games comm. Thanks to mark for preparing the logistics for games trial tmr.

Pe was kinda slack today and I kinda regret not going for the actual thing I am supposed to go-2.4km run. =-= !!! but I really hope I can improve. Games trial tmr, maths test tmr, econs tmr and lectures tmr!!! THIS IS CRAZY!!!!

you threw me in the net back then. I was wrong. cos you threw me with a net in the end. I am caught in the middle and I dont know what you want.

Family day

2009-04-06T09:14:00.003+08:00

family day was a success!!!

Thanks to everyone's help and patience. The preparation was mad. Most of the councillors had to juggle both their own stalls and the family day stuff. Stage helpers were like pratically at the stage most of the time until it started to rain when we could move back to our own stalls. We had fun most importantly although my stall seem to have made a loss.=(

There was like deflation of prices in desperation to clear the stocks. 8 oreo for 1 dollar. ice cream tub for 2 dollar. how bad can it get? oh wells.

Stuck in council room with these guys for stage helpers' preparation the day before.

Some funny story behind how we got the longans.=)
TADA! the aj bear. Its so cute that my mum bought it for me when she didnt bought the CH bear 3 years ago. she seems to like ajc a lot.=)

Family day is over and I wish AJC another happy 25 years down the road.

It isnt over. You may think I am not trying. Its hard to decide the way people wants things to be. Its our thinking and ability to reactive in cases, a totally different issue. Mixing them together may cover the real big picture. No matter what happens, I really hope the sky can be clear like the rainbow.

another day

2009-04-02T22:19:00.003+08:00

my brother is back from camp!!! haha. hope he really enjoyed it.

Today was a great day especially pe. I was dead beat after pe but i had to meet mr ng for the games proposal which was kinda a headache for the past few days. NOW, we need an idea for the mass game!!!

The sky is blue and it seems like I dont really recall the last time I saw that smile. Clouds are just like blankets, burying every single moment you treasure without you noticing. Its just another part and parcel of life. Accept it dude...

encouragement

2009-04-01T21:26:00.001+08:00

I really really really really need a word of encouragement...

arghhhh

wtf

2009-04-01T18:26:00.003+08:00

I written a whole lot of crap but my computer seem to fail me time and again. this time, my post couldnt be posted... I shall now summarise wat I have written just now.

Problems may seem to be easy to solve on the surface. Sometimes, it takes a lot of courage to do so. Persistent people are generally better at solving critical problems. Pebbles are small stones that could put a great weight on you if you carry them all at a go. Its time to let these small stones go, let them drop, let them fly, let them fall with pride, let them disperse with no regrets. Most importantly, we cannot let them break. Its a matter of time before you get the whole picture of things happening around you. Studies, council, friends, family, swimming or even self committment. Its a matter of perspective. If you are still not going to let these pebbles down, it will stunt your growth and for that matter, we are like seeds who will grow tomorrow and one day we will stand tall and see the wider perspective. Let them go...

phy test tmr

2009-03-31T18:43:00.002+08:00

hello unknown, plz identify who you are or I wont know.

We had a meaningful civics lesson today in the audi. Be a running river and not a stagnant pond. Compare with people who are worst off than you coz its a fact of life(sounds wrong). We should feel lucky that we can see the bright sunshine every morning and complain to our friends about our monotous life every sch day as well as come back home safely after a long tiring day of work.

Its not we dont smile at all. Sometimes, it is just another thing that comes naturally and at the right instance. We cannot force one out, neither can we fake one. Every smile is genuine and every moment is precious

another day

2009-03-30T21:27:00.003+08:00

today was supposed to be a free day after 145, but had to rush back home and chiong back to school at 5pm to meet council teachers for elects' camp briefing.

Had lunch with mum and dad today at Jack's Place and had a small talk over matters. I had to catch up, I need to buck up, I will head forward.

Time flies like a soaring eagle. When in the skies, it stays at a constant speed. Once it zooms down, its speed is unmeasurable. Decided to pack my room and dedicate part of my table to some files. I really miss the old days where I could just sit back and relax and still catch up in my work.

Treasure that period. On land or water, its just another analogy. Things went well some time and situation turns sour ocassionally. Even if its just a moment, i will still treasure it.
Learn from a baby, cry and forget. Learn from the sky, rain and shine. Learn from the tree, grow and cover...

e learning

2009-03-28T17:29:00.003+08:00

I am so blur about the e-learning process. So far, I only went through physics and chemistry.

Went to school in the morning for council game fest. Congrats, its another adhoc over!!! The weather has been hot for the past few days. My family had to escape from the heat and run out of the house to go to American Club to enjoy the air-con. There is so many things to worry about and I think we have really become full time councillor and part time student. That could just be the price we have to pay. Nonetheless, it is still up to ourselves to control the extent of it. I must say that time flies real fast. From sec3 to now, mr Tan hock ping has prove me right when he told us time flies. I really miss the days in Sec sch, nothing to worry about. I miss my nice friends who will joke with me like we are jokers. Life has been a peaceful river at the moment...

I really treasure that moment, even if it is just a moment. That moment was the moment of truth and resilience. Strive far and glide through. Be flexible and be true...

Addicted to my sister's new found lame song... mr brown

Games Comm

2009-03-27T21:01:00.002+08:00

Enough is enough! Mad is Mad!

Games is crazy,especially the games brainstorming part. I really stared into blank space while doing so. Met jiwei at bukit gombak today, a very very far away place from my comfortable home. Anyway, we went Macs which was surprisingly quiet. We did a few RAMs and some ideas until my Com suddenly black out. We were like " oh my god. What the hell?!" freaked out like mad. Luckily after many times of trying and trying. The file managed to be retrieved!!! So, we were like ownage. We got like 8 CIP Hours just for this meeting which was supposed to only last for 4 hours. I went back on a very crowded train and slept through the long tiring journey but I somehow seem to enjoy bus rides more than train rides. I instant KO when I came back home.
Oh ya, Thanks to jiwei for buying me a large milo!!! and we realised one lame thing. Laughter can actually make you gain more calories and lose more calories at the same time!!!

It is a tough journey ahead. Hang on and Press on. We will be there soon

e learning

2009-03-26T18:27:00.002+08:00

Today was a day that I cannot forget. The elects' camp comm rocks totally. Can somehow change topic change until damn fast and it gets me and the rest excited.

Peace is idealistic, not realistic. There are so many things happening in our daily lives. Some may seem to be just a superfical thing, but we must understand that there are more things to worry about. Life ain't about worry, it is a two way thing. I am so tired. really shagged. I watched a meaningful show-PDR-Pride, Determination and Resilience. These values were the ones that made this group of people realised the need to be true to yourself and confident. For a cause, for a reason, for peace and for the sake of yourself, no matter how life has been torturing you, there is always a fated route to take and to conquer.

AJI

2009-03-26T00:42:00.002+08:00

AJI is finally over. Congrats to all. Thanks elects/councillors.=)
Had a lot of fun doing backstage with elects. It really made my day. I am very shagged now and I still have a meeting tomorrow at 8am in the morning. ARGHHH.... elects' camp. Its gonna be the best ever...

Its not time to say goodbye. I wanna say hello

Council

2009-03-25T00:24:00.002+08:00

Today was a ok day. Except I dunno why the guys kept laughing in the classroom about some lame stuff. But I had my fun. HAHA!

Council is really getting the hell out of me. Like what joerh said, Part time student, Full time Councillor. Elects' camp Games are really kinda headache for the fact that me myself and jiwei have no prior experience. I was planning to sleep earlier until I dreamt of Elects' camp Games. I dunno why but I just did. Then, in the end, I woke up and do the proposal. At this stage, I also feel that I really need more brain juice!!! Think harder and harder and even harder. I really kind of have no time to study. Right, then I shouldnt be blogging too.

Better go chiong the econs essays I owe ms Kat for 2 weeks=-=

tired

2009-03-23T23:53:00.002+08:00

Had a long day today and came home like 10pm. AJI can be considered a success from what I have observed from the recent months. The goodie bag is good. The performers are ready. The equipments are ready. The emcees are good. Everything seems perfect.

Elects' camp ad hoc had our 1st meeting today and I am games comm. ZZZ. My worst nightmare. No matter what happens, I will try my best to bring the best out of the elects during this camp. Elects camp 2009 will be different I assure. It will be the best camp you ever had during your JC life I bet with you all elects. The games will be a hell of a fun!=) Trust me.

I am really dumbfounded. Is this what it is gonna be?

swimming

2009-03-21T21:14:00.002+08:00

SL is officially over and I really hope the kids had something to take away from our activities besides the fun factor and also I wish them all the best in whatever they do and remain as happy as ever.=) I was very pleased with my team as they were polite and sociable. I didnt really had to break the ice because they did it themselves so I was kind of happy in a sense.

One really really unfortunate thing happen to me today. I vomitted at the swimming pool for the second time. How bad can that be? Is my fitness really so bad or is it just an accident? AHHHHHH!!!!

Perceptions are views that are rather biased unless for a good reason you had that thinking. Its hard to guess and think the same way as another person especially when you might think you know the person but in fact you dont at all. People do drift away from others and someday they might just bump into each other again. But when they do, do they still remember? do they still attempt? do they still try? The water is clear, the sky is empty, the heart is innocent. It just makes no sense...

2009-03-20T23:37:00.003+08:00

The holidays are gonna be over soon!!! Sad to say I didnt really do much for this week. I think we should give ourselves a pat on our back to be praised for the hard work put in for the past days.

Reading some of my old stuffs just now and I realised that AJC has been such a wonderful place with so many nice people around. My life has been coloured and impacted by these people-every single one of them. We may lead a mundane lifestyle but we may have forgotten the happy times we made ourselves and spent them together. A true meaning of friendship only last that moment which decided the real path to take at a point of no return. I need a different place, different moment and different path.

another day

2009-03-20T13:41:00.003+08:00

Woke up in the morning and rushed to school with a Mac burger in my hands. Packing 1000(ONE THOUSAND) goodie bags is no joke, seriously. AJI is round the corner and it seems like its gonna be a big bang in AJC 2009. The contestants this year are relatively good especially one solo vocalist. I can like totally immerse in her voice lah. Back to the packing, We were like mass producing some goodie bags like in a factory. I was counting counting counting until mr ng came in and there goes my counting. We had to restart counting. Mr ng is one funny guy that always make me wanna disturb him lah. Cannot control.

Its pretty dark outside now and I hope it rains but stop at around 4 so that I can go to tuition in peace. What I can really say is POWER sia councillors.

another day

2009-03-18T21:04:00.002+08:00

It seems that time passes so fast but people are realising that they are taking too long a time for their stuff. Now, I am a student. So, I am suppose to take studies as 1st priority. But the fact that the education system is so competitive really place the interest in studies of students at a much lower level. I went to the USP talk today which was quite enriching. They provide opportunities for people to do things of their interest as well as study the course they should be taking. The fact that this is a scholar's programme means that only elites can do this. We are all aware about the fact that education is vital to our community but can we rise up to the occasion when it comes? Probably only the best of the best.

A mirror may seem to be an aid to see yourself better in it through your reflection. But we do not know what is behind the mirror. Seeing yourself through here is so superfical when you are aware that it is only a reflection, a "copy" of yourself. Take a step back, relax and think about the reasons for the things you do and by the time you have taken your step, you will understand yourself better from a totally different perspective.

another interesting day

2009-03-17T21:57:00.002+08:00

today was another shiok day because I spent my whole day in school again!!!really no time to study already!!! Somemore tmr have the game fest trial. I really need to study and I need motivation...

Talked to mr ng regarding some issues and I realised that I may have the wrong perception about life for the past few years. Nevertheless, the right thing is to still just do your best no matter what happens.

To all who helped me one way or another, Thank you so much, I really appreciate it. Truly, your small acts meant that much.=)

To all who believed in me, I promised that I'll do my best in the things I do and hope for the best for everyone.=)

It was just that moment that made me have such a strong faith, but it seems to be fading away...

another day

2009-03-15T22:25:00.002+08:00

Its a monday tomorrow and let me illustrate how I am gonna spent it.

First thing in the morning, SL dry run in school. I am a upper Primary Facilitator and the Logistics member who is aimming for maximum CIP hrs.=) 9am to 12pm. Halfway through, I will leave for council duty at 11 and then join back my class at 1230 for some buying of logistics. This will drag until about 5 like that at douby ghaunt. I wonder how am I gonna have the energy to sustain!!!

Life is like a piece of lemon. Yellow on the outside who is seemingly bright and tasty. However, a piece in mouth tells it all. sour, sour and sour. Sour maybe a good thing afterall if it has a tinge of sweetness in it. How ironic life can be. But to me, it is a joyful experience.

another day

2009-03-14T21:30:00.002+08:00

Today was a great day totally except for the fact that I didnt get to sleep enough. 1st day of holiday was kinda empty because there are no funny people around me like the 23/08 gang, council gang and random friends who I like talking nonsense with. Well, I just realised that I keep making funny comments that has no link in it at all. My sister and bro were like laughing at my "lame" joke.

Oh well, I spent most of my afternoon and morning at American Club trying my best to absorb some notes but to no avail. Had a nice lunch at some Japanese restaurant at Heeren basement. However, I am still sad to announce that I am still a bit sick. Had persistent Flu and Cough and Sore Throat, but most of it are fading away already which is good and thanks to my mum for giving me "liang Teh" to chase the cough away. Swimming was ok today except for the fact that I regretted helping my friend to swim part of the lap because I would be harming him if I did so and I did inadvertently. Sorry and I will not do it again.

Meeting 23/08 peeps and council 25th! soon and our lan Session is STILL ON!!! Although kinda rusty, I will still go!!!=) SL dry run this monday, Council duty this monday and wed. USP talk this wed and I really hope there is still an OBS outing!!! quickly organise!!!=)

this is not the way. Let the light show us

last day before holidays

2009-03-13T22:17:00.002+08:00

hey all!

Today was a tiring day. Several sad things though... 1st of all, Cheerleading. Combining all the houses together definitely eliminates the fun factor in the competition. But I can really see the house comm people trying their best to think of ways and ideas. Hmmm, now I am still considering if i should take part in cheerleading this year since I would not be representing jaguar. 2ndly, I am officially sick and has not been so since last year Nov holidays. The flu is irritating and my throat is painful. How I wish I can be free from all illness!!!
Swimming lesson starts tomorrow and I hope I would be well enough to swim!!!

March Holidays= no holidays.

Is it becoming a norm that I dont feel the same again? or do you?

another day

2009-03-12T22:25:00.002+08:00

today was a tiring day esp after pe
I was supposed to train 6 rounds but I miscalculated and accidentally ran 7 rounds! No wonder I was so tired! however, I did managed to catch some AJidol performance after PE. There was this girl that sang until like I can immerse in her voice like that. Now then I realised AJ actually has such talents. I really want to hear her SING AGAIN!!!!!!!

Min thu and I almost fell asleep during tuition!!! sorry mr yong!!! I will try to pay more attention in your lessons.=)
Remarkably, I have to say that I did enjoy my thursday although I didnt get to swim for the week again!!! oh wells, have to wait until sat then.=)))

another day

2009-03-11T19:33:00.003+08:00

I have something to declare!!!
I am going to skip my GP LECTURE TMR coz of council.=)
(not that I want to)

today was another hectic and I forced myself to stay awake for the two consecutive lectures in audi with the help of the fisherman friend. I shall try that some other time.=) Wanted to go swim today but mum asked me to come home early for dinner... sian. but I had a very very full dinner.=)

I want and need to improve my physical fitness. I need to jump further, run faster and swim better.AH!!! I need to train. WHO CAN HELP ME???? BIG QUESTION MARK!!!

I saw you today again. Its still burning, but what can I do? havent I decided? but it seems like a long road ahead. The path is still unclear and the big question is will it ever be cleared? Will I see you at the other end of the path? I'm losing stamina and breaths... Its really not up to me...

another day

2009-03-10T19:37:00.001+08:00

Today was freaking hot!!!
SO! I decided to take bus home at about 3pm. The air-con in the bus was excellent! haha! I didnt mind taking the bus alone and daydream in there for about 15 bus stops.=)

How to slack the whole day?
SLEEP!!!!! or rather nap!!!=)

wanna swim real soon.

mandane

2009-03-08T21:05:00.002+08:00

Having mixed feelings for the past two days, I really cannot accept that fact. Am I meant to always not achieve the best in everything I do. The fact that I had high hopes to what I feel I did the best, the greater the disappointment is gonna be. Its not something that one can learn from and do it again. This is really something that will only happen once in a lifetime. Did I really not make the best out of it? I really hope things will just go well and I am really clueless of what I am expecting of myself now.

Saturday was a fruitful day. Literally so because my family decided to cheer up by not going easy on the durians and mangosteens. We spent close to a hundred dollars on the fruits. It really took me a while to realise that my family has been really more than kind to me and acceptable of who I am. We laughed for at least 1 hr while eating the durians. haha. Apart from the literal meaning of fruitful, I attended a Public Speaking Workshop in school. The guy seemed to the one enlightening us about the things that are special in us and what we should believe in. However, lets face reality. Things may not always turn out your way. Its good that you have your own beliefs and values. But can these things keep you out of danger? Do they really have an impact on others? No doubt, they play an important role in shaping not just your character, but part of your destiny. But the truth is only some are up to it.

Sunday was a great day, having the whole day spent at tuition centre. I didnt mind the fact that I have to attend tuition again for 2 moreyears after sec sch, in fact I am very grateful that my parents are supportive of me also.=) I kinda embarrassed myself today in class when I almost burst into laughter after recieving rueylin's sms and the teacher was like staring at me with that weird expression. HAHA

Apart from my daily life, I am grateful to my friends who have one or other highlighted my life and made it colourful till today tomorrow and my whole school life. Friends and families are the real treasure of our lives. They are the ones who do things to make you happy, do things to make you sad, do things to help you and sometimes need us to do things to help them. Its a give and take, care and share, love and help, be there for each other. I will still remember the words that came from my instructor in OBS: expect the unexpected.

high expectations...

chinese

2009-03-06T22:02:00.002+08:00

The scene today was a repeat of what happen two years ago when I was collecting my O lvl CL results. But luckily this time, I made it!=)

I have to admit I was feeling a bit negative yesterday until my friend consoled assured me. thanks a lot!=) A level results were released today and I think AJC did quite well except for Physics I think.

To all my beloved friends,
If you have done well, I feel very happy for you too. Your efforts paid off! jiayou

If you feel that the results didnt meet your expectations, Dont worry and dont be sad, there is a second chance. I learnt it too from my O lvl chinese when I got a B3 during the 1st paper. I retook 3 times and got a A2 in the end. Its not impossible. The most impt thing is the end point and ending line that all will reach. Lastly, from the bottom of my heart, its not the end, I want the people around me to do well too. All the best and move on happily. You can do it! Lets go for it!

you just walked past me without noticing...

mistaken

2009-03-01T23:00:00.002+08:00

Is it a mistake?

I have no idea.

Today was a tiring day as usual, but this has to carry on for 1 more year before serving the NS! Napfa is on tuesday and I really hope to get a gold again for it. I already bought my 80 cents red bull so that I can complete my 2.4km and 5 stations during that one hour. Homework is like a heap of mountain as usual. I suddenly found my interest back in swimming. So, I am gonna swim more after my napfa and I wanna train my butterfly stroke!!! swim like a dolphin.

Council again. My mentees are nice people and I do hope they can learn a thing or two under me for the next week. Council is really a nice CCA to be in but you have to decide if you can make the mark, not us. AJ idol has reached to a completion in the case of their auditions. I wonder who get in man. Such a suspense. Just received a relay to do aar by next week. That means another day late back in school again!

really cannot wait to go into the water again and swim a few rounds!

What a mistake?

24/2

2009-02-24T19:29:00.002+08:00

today was a great day. Laugh a lot throughout the day and we also took on the survival course in the canteen today.

Piles of homework giving me lots of pressure... man....

Cannot go back in time...